http://ping.fm/CvKzL Dark poetry rant.

Dolly's Dark Poetry Rant

I haven't written any poetry in quite some time. I stopped writing poetry in part because of being overworked and feeling uninspired to write at all, and in part because when I write depressive poetry, the few people that comment generally say things like "sounds like you're really depressed" and "maybe you should try counseling."

I don't mean to be snarky--I know they're trying to be helpful. But my first thought with the "sounds like you're depressed comment" tends to be "no shit, Sherlock, you think? I have a mood disorder and it's not exactly like I'm living anywhere close to high on the hog even though I work all the goddess-forsaken time. Maybe, just maybe, I am a wee tad depressed. And maybe that shouldn't come as a surprise. It says right there in my side bar that I'm a person who lives with mental illness."

Again, I'm not wanting to put down someone who genuinely means well. But people tend to be uncomfortable when anyone expresses any emotion other than being okay with their lives. This is a means for me to deal with my depressive feelings. Maybe I'd prefer you didn't try to soothe it away. When I write happy poetry, it tends to be shit. Funny perhaps, but shit nonetheless. It's usually funny only to me. 

As for counseling, don't make me laugh. Those fuckers don't get it. The only thing they get is my money from my pocketbook, and I need that shit to pay for food and housing. And the ones who work in the county mental health system are so overworked that they have no idea what to do with a person who isn't fairly well psychotic. They're used to dealing with critical cases, not the functioning mentally ill. So, no counseling for Dolly, thanks. Maybe if I win the lottery I'll consider springing for it. But I'm going to get a lot of chiropractic care and massages for my aching body first!

http://ping.fm/mrhbk Poem: Dreamless Sleep

Dreamless Sleep

 

So tired, I draw the curtains to shut out the day

And close my eyes to the dim and lonely room

I don't want to dream of anyone

Or anything

I only crave oblivion

Is this what it feels like when you've lost all your dreams

And desire only eternal darkness?

Credits:

Bellatrix Media

Have to force self to stay awake another 2-3 hours. Off work @ 6, to grocery store & buy food. Then finally home to sleep. I am so beat!

Dolly's Big Fat Rant

You don't like the way fat people look? Well, we aren't asking you to lust over us! We're just asking for basic courtesy and to stop the fucking bullshit and lies like "fat people are all lazy, lonely, and unhealthy." Most fat people I know are either really hard workers or have physical problems (kidney failure or such) that keep them from being able to work. I have some physical problems but they are all musculoskeletal crap. I'm not about to drop over dead just because I should lose a pound or eighty. I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, or any of that shit. I admit I don't have many friends (none in 3D) but that's because my fat, lazy ass is so lazy that I"m always...guess what...WORKING!!!!! Because I'm fat and lazy and don't do anything but watch TV and stuff my fat face. Give me a fucking break.
Thanks for hearing me out. I just had to rant about that load of bull manure that the fucking anorexia culture keeps trying to feed us.

I'm fat and I'm eating a brownie. Kiss my fat back cheeks if you have a problem with that. I am also really over size prejudice.

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Holy heck, I have 70 friend requests! I haven't played with this much, have I? I'll get to you folks, I promise! On the run now though.

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